Ep 128. How to Rebuild Your Life After Losing Your Daily Routine
Show notes
For the first time in 26 years, Christine no longer has a horse determining her daily routine.
Although Maggie has moved to what Christine considers the perfect home, saying goodbye revealed something unexpected. It wasn't only the horse she would miss, but the structure, movement, rhythm, and responsibility that had quietly organized her life.
Reflecting on the seven weeks of intensive care while Maggie recovered from illness, Christine explores how deeply our identity can become connected to the responsibilities we carry.
This isn't only true for horse owners. The same questions arise when we retire, finish an important project, change jobs, or when children leave home. We often think we are losing a task, while in reality we are also losing part of the structure that defines our days.
In this personal episode, Christine reflects on what remains when responsibility ends, why unfamiliar freedom can feel uncomfortable, and how creating a new structure may be one of the most important parts of any life transition.
Show transcript
00:00:00: For the very first time in twenty-six years, I don't have a horse.
00:00:03: Well that's not really true because i still do have two horses.
00:00:08: well...I do pay for two horses but..i dont'have a horse.
00:00:11: that is really deciding my everyday life Because Maggie has moved today to a place where My other horse Serena has been living for the last eight years and i know this is paradise for horses.
00:00:29: Hi and welcome to Leadwell.
00:00:35: I really love the idea that Maggie now can enjoy that same wonderful life here, but this saying goodbye to her was so much more difficult than expected because it's my realization.
00:01:00: For the very first time in twenty six years, I don't have to go through this table every day or.
00:01:06: Don't need to find someone to look after her when i'm not around.
00:01:11: well?
00:01:11: I had horses before that.
00:01:12: she's now twenty-six years old of course just ten years out now but Not going to the stable every single day and also am NOT working on an unemployment.
00:01:23: so I don' t Have THAT structure either And no one will decide what my structure looks like day by day.
00:01:31: So what really has vanished now, has disappeared is the responsibility?
00:01:38: Is this also movement because my horses have made me move around quite a lot and it's all.
00:01:44: so this rhythm, this structure... The fixed times that I had of reason to get up!
00:01:52: And just getting into my current and drive away Bigger picture, especially because the last seven weeks were so intense.
00:02:06: Maggie being ill I had to take care of her every single day.
00:02:11: i went to the stable in the morning and got back In The Evening...I needed to muck up the stall.. I needed to prepare for her.
00:02:18: hey!
00:02:19: I need to give her a hey!
00:02:23: drag the water along and also go back in forward, I'm backing for my smartwatch was really happy with me.
00:02:32: And now this is all gone!
00:02:35: Maybe it's not motivation that i will be missing.
00:02:42: maybe its this rhythm This need to move...and when I was moving yeah..I enjoyed
00:02:50: It!!
00:02:51: I really loved The Last Seven Weeks because I had so much fun also not only being with Maggie, taking care of her.
00:02:58: All these daily chores...I really enjoyed them!
00:03:01: They made me move they make me lose pounds..they made me loose quite a lot of weight and now this will be gone.
00:03:07: And when you think about it how often does that happen to us in life?
00:03:13: When we change job....when we get retired.....When the kids leave our house or when big project is finished.
00:03:23: So when a long responsibility comes to an end, we not only lose that task.
00:03:31: We not only loose that responsibility... ...we lose part of our
00:03:36: identity.".
00:03:38: The question is what defines my daily structure?
00:03:43: How much have I chosen and would change if this structure would go
00:03:53: away?"
00:03:53: tomorrow.
00:03:54: Who am I if that happens?
00:03:56: Who am i without a horse, I'm taking care
00:03:59: of?".
00:03:59: And I don't know the answer yet!
00:04:02: I will have to find it out also together with my husband who has been living pretty lonely life for the last few weeks and I would love really create new structure consciously.
00:04:17: one fits my current life, and maybe I have not lost a horse.
00:04:23: Maybe for the first time in twenty-six years... ...I don't have a horse that needs me every single
00:04:31: day.".
00:04:31: And that feels pretty unfamiliar also uncomfortable but may be this is just beginning of Just A New Face In My Life.
00:04:47: I would love to hear how you have dealt with those new beginnings.
00:04:52: Have a wonderful week!
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